Lonely. You must know the definition of this word by now. If you don’t, this is from the “Oxford English Dictionary” Lonely: dejected because of want of company or society; sad at the thought that one is alone; having a feeling of solitariness. Do you think this sounds like the meaning of loneliness? The question that stands is if our society is filled with SO many people, how can one feel lonely? How is it possible? Could it be true? If so, why do I feel this way today? I mean today was my last final. Maybe I feel this way because I’ve learned that the semester is truly over. I will NEVER be able to take this batch of classes again. I am so happy to be done the semester, but it’s still sad.
I feel something coming. I don’t know where it’s coming from or what it is, but I feel it. I promise I FEEL it. It’s so sickly disgusting that I might throw up.
Death is a really hard subject in general. Let’s face it, people try to avoid the subject because they are afraid of it or it “shouldn’t be talked about.” This is a serious matter and sometimes you must talk about it. It’s too scary. I know. I realize that, however, it will happen to EVERYONE at some point. Honestly, I am scared to death of death, no pun intended. Most of the time when you ask someone what is their biggest fear, death will take the cake. It will usually be #1 on almost everyone’s list.
Now, the question is, why is it so scary? Well the reason is one doesn’t know what happens after they die. Also, the one who dies will NEVER come back. I believe ‘that’ is what undertakes the whole subject of death for me.
Furthermore, coming back to my first idea, I also believe lots of people die of loneliness. This is particularly present especially among older couples whose spouse dies earlier than should in their marriage. They can’t bear the thought of living without them, so they might commit suicide.
These are ALL scary things, but one must grasp one thing, it’s life. I know it IS a big deal, however, at the same time, this occurs every day. Do you realize there is someone dying RIGHT now as I write this?
Wrap your brain around that..