Just sitting here listening to the fish tank in my room make a bubbling noise, meanwhile my clock ticks softly. Other than these two noises, there is silence.
“Are you afraid,” I hear. Nope. I don’t have a fear of silence, nor do I fear sitting alone with myself. When you first start doing it, it is a hard process to just sit and let your mind take over. In this moment, you think of almost anything imaginable. The questions start popping out of nowhere.
“Will I succeed in life?” “Will I ever be happy?” “Are the things I’m doing right now fulfilling?” “Will I get married?” “Is all of this hard work ever going to pay off?”
These are the types of thoughts that can ruin a person. If you think like this all the time, you might either wear yourself out or have a nervous breakdown trying to find out the answers to these daunting questions.
I’m scared to death. I’ll admit it. I graduate from college next year. Can you believe one year right now, I will have my bachelor’s in english and have to move onto the real world. And gosh am I scared shitless.
I’m terrified of doing something I hate for the rest of my life.
I’m scared the choices I make could be dangerous and steer me in the wrong direction.
And, I’m terrified that my life will become unfulfilling.
I’m sending this message out to all of you: Please decide as soon as you can what you want to do with your life. I don’t want you to end up at a job that you hate so much that you dread waking up in the morning.
Be careful with your choices.