I’m scared. Are you?

Just sitting here listening to the fish tank in my room make a bubbling noise, meanwhile my clock ticks softly. Other than these two noises, there is silence.

“Are you afraid,” I hear. Nope. I don’t have a fear of silence, nor do I fear sitting alone with myself. When you first start doing it, it is a hard process to just sit and let your mind take over. In this moment, you think of almost anything imaginable. The questions start popping out of nowhere.

“Will I succeed in life?”  “Will I ever be happy?”  “Are the things I’m doing right now fulfilling?”  “Will I get married?”  “Is all of this hard work ever going to pay off?”

These are the types of thoughts that can ruin a person. If you think like this all the time, you might either wear yourself out or have a nervous breakdown trying to find out the answers to these daunting questions.

I’m scared to death. I’ll admit it. I graduate from college next year. Can you believe one year right now, I will have my bachelor’s in english and have to move onto the real world. And gosh am I scared shitless.

I’m terrified of doing something I hate for the rest of my life.

I’m scared the choices I make could be dangerous and steer me in the wrong direction.

And, I’m terrified that my life will become unfulfilling.

I’m sending this message out to all of you: Please decide as soon as you can what you want to do with your life. I don’t want you to end up at a job that you hate so much that you dread waking up in the morning.

Be careful with your choices.

Be safe.

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One Comment Add yours

  1. Ian Telefoan says:

    I completely agree, the future scares the bejesus out of me. If I could, I would absolutely like to know right now how my life turns out. However, I know that’s an impossibility.

    I have always felt that if you rush into things too quickly, you will make decisions that you ultimately regret, and ignore opportunities that could have been unimaginably gratifying. Remember, if you can’t see the future, then there’s no sense in rushing there.

    While I can understand not wanting to wake up every morning, dreading going into work, and saying to yourself “It’s ok, this job is only temporary,” making that sort of delay on your road to happiness isn’t necessarily a bad thing–not only can it give you that much more time to think about what you really want to do with your life, but it can also give the world that much more time to create some opportunity, just for you.

    But the most important thing to remember is that you are in complete control of your own life. If you ever feel like you are going nowhere, or you hate where you are going, pick yourself up by the bootstraps and point yourself in the direction you choose.

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