I don’t know. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know what I want. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know why I have such high expectations. Right now, I should be on top of the world. Graduating in December with an amazing guy by my side. It sounds like a perfect situation to be in, but I’m worried, struggling & disgusted … Continue reading I Don’t Know.
He sits closer, looks into my eyes & says, I know that we’re really busy with homework, live a little distance apart, are a little different & are graduating in December, but I wanted to ask you, will you be my girlfriend? On October 22nd, 2012, new guy asked me to be his girlfriend. Naturally, I accepted. My feelings for him have gotten stronger & stronger … Continue reading He’s worth it & he’s my boyfriend.
Did you see his face? Did you see the way he looked? Did you see his reaction when he found out the group was a bust? Another letdown. I can’t put into words how sorry I am, how bad I feel. I can’t help but keep repeating the situation over & over in my mind. It just continues to replay again & again. To start, … Continue reading What a horrible, terrible night that went from good to bad.
I’m two people in two different worlds. Over here I’m friends, but over here I’m more than friends. I need to alter, change myself when I hang out with each one. Today was supposed to be a good day. I would hang out between classes with my new guy then go to a meet up group with him. It was all good. The new guy … Continue reading Two worlds, Two selves.
I sit here thinking, wondering, pondering what to write. My feelings? My future? Graduation? Two months. That’s all until I graduate from college. It really hit me tonight as I continue to write cover letters & revise my resume for internships, what happens if I don’t get any of them?! Literally. What happens? I. Have.No.Idea. I don’t have another plan. “That” was my plan. The internship … Continue reading Gosh, I want to think optimistically, but it’s hard sometimes
I can’t concentrate. I can’t do homework. I can’t do the things I need to do. Well, the “right” moment came. I spoke to him. You’ll never guess his age. 26. On October 21st, he’ll be 27. He is 4 years older than me, but I’m fine with that. I’ve been spending lots of time with him. He likes me, I like him a lot. … Continue reading So far, he’s just so amazing!