I Don’t Know.

I don’t know. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know what I want. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know why I have such high expectations. Right now, I should be on top of the world. Graduating in December with an amazing guy by my side. It sounds like a perfect…

He’s worth it & he’s my boyfriend.

He sits closer, looks into my eyes & says, I know that we’re really busy with homework, live a little distance apart, are a little different & are graduating in December, but I wanted to ask you, will you be my girlfriend? On October 22nd, 2012, new guy asked me to be his girlfriend. Naturally, I…

Two worlds, Two selves.

I’m two people in two different worlds. Over here I’m friends, but over here I’m more than friends. I need to alter, change myself when I hang out with each one. Today was supposed to be a good day. I would hang out between classes with my new guy then go to a meet up…

Gosh, I want to think optimistically, but it’s hard sometimes

I sit here thinking, wondering, pondering what to write. My feelings? My future? Graduation? Two months. That’s all until I graduate from college. It really hit me tonight as I continue to write cover letters & revise my resume for internships, what happens if I don’t get any of them?! Literally. What happens? I. Have.No.Idea. I…

So far, he’s just so amazing!

I can’t concentrate. I can’t do homework. I can’t do the things I need to do. Well, the “right” moment came. I spoke to him. You’ll never guess his age. 26. On October 21st, he’ll be 27. He is 4 years older than me, but I’m fine with that. I’ve been spending lots of time…