It’s funny how things can change in the blink of an eye. In just a year’s time span, your whole world can turn upside down. As humans, we cannot predict the future. All we can do is hope for the best and expect the worst.
A year ago, I was a mess. I don’t mean like emotionally unstable or anything like that, I’m talking about not being able to make my own decisions, dressing like I didn’t have a ton of confidence and hiding whenever someone wanted to confront me. But, I learned how to cope with situations, dress better and not be so afraid to confront someone. While I’d like to say I learned all of this on my own, I’d be lying to you and I’m an honest person.
It was my fiancé who taught me these things.
Just being around him instilled confidence and better judgment I never knew I had. I’ve been with him for almost 3 years and I am not the same person as I was when we met. It’s a positive thing though!
He wanted me to see the qualities he saw in me : attractive and having confidence. But, it wasn’t just about my appearance, he wanted me to stop being a coward and ‘grow some balls’ –or so to speak. And, I did.
He didn’t teach me to stand up for myself though. My job taught me that along with having a thicker skin and learning how to open my mouth – when necessary. There are so many lessons to learn in life and everyone around me has told me I’m so young and I have a long road ahead. What they don’t know is, it’s not just about ‘learning,’ it has to do with experience.
I moved 800+ miles away from home to another state with a guy I’d been with for 15 months. Sure – I was fearful that it wouldn’t work out, that I’d have to retreat back home and start over. But, deep down, I knew he was the one for me, I just needed more time to realize it. I needed to live with him in order to see the real person he was. We had to endure situations together and see how each other reacted.
He gives me the tough love I needed all along and I appreciate him each and every day. But, you must know I didn’t know this right away. It took time and patience, but I finally got to a point where I knew he was the guy I’d marry. Even though we don’t always get along, we will love each other no matter what!