One week until our lives turn completely upside down – again. I mean things like, “we just got here,” “I’m not ready to leave” and “I’ll miss this place” come and go. Sure – I’ve accepted the situation for what it is and can’t change anything, but there’s still part of me that’s rather sad.
We spent a year in Tennessee, so we’ve sort of built a life here.
“Tennessee failed you guys, you didn’t fail it,” said my fiancé’s mom and my mom. And, it’s true.
We didn’t do anything wrong except take a chance. We had no idea what the outcome would be, but we tried. We tried our hardest and we both fought for it and never gave up. Even though I’ll miss living in Tennessee, I knew it was temporary and that we never truly ‘fit’ in.
It seems, most people in Tennessee are chatty and we’re the opposite. He and I are rather quiet people; it’s just in our nature and that’s not how everyone surrounding us was. People would often question why he and I were so quiet, but that’s just always been who we are.
It’s not our fault his boss and co-worker insulted his work ethic. It’s not our fault he got blamed for not doing a ‘good enough’ job. It’s not our fault we have to move back to PA. I can’t sit here and blame him or myself because it’s not our fault.
But, even though we’re closing this chapter in our lives, it doesn’t mean I should feel sorry for myself that it didn’t turn out how we planned. I shouldn’t feel like a failure. I shouldn’t beat myself up about it.
I’ve always favored the phrase, ‘when one door closes, another door opens.’ And, it’s true. We’re going to start over and see where life takes us! This could be a blessing in disguise, but I won’t know it right now.
I’m ready to take the next step in my life and really focus on our wedding because that’s the most important going on at this time. And, I’ll shift all my worries, concerns and stress over to wedding planning instead of my career.