My Year In Review for 2016

Truth be told 2016 has been a shitty year for all of us.

I overheard a woman talking to her friend about losing so many loved ones as well as celebrities this year.

I haven’t lost anyone, but I’ve had a rough year.

We started off the year with deciding whether he should look for another job in Tennessee or should we be grown-ups and temporarily move back home. I was absolutely distraught. I went from crying to accepting it to crying all over again. I remember the day he called me at work to tell me he was ready to quit his job because they were blaming him for something that wasn’t even his fault!

I was becoming more & more upset and pissed for his sake.

He then had his surgery in February, which left him out of work, but he was still getting paid, so we were okay.

We made the final decision to move back home at the end of April. So, I had to tell my job. My VP was very disappointed – as was I. Every day it would get closer and closer to when we had to leave and I’d become sadder and sadder and more pissed that his job did this to us.

He was happy to leave and get the hell away from Tennessee.

So, his brother, friend, and dad came to help us relocate back to PA.

On the ride home, with Ollie in the passenger seat, I cried my eyes out. I cried because I was losing my independence, that we were in this predicament and simply because I was not ready to leave.

My VP let me keep the magazine, but I decided to move on from the Community Manager position because it would be too hard to keep it remotely. Therefore, I spent my days working on the magazine and growing it. I spent my summer looking for jobs and feeling sorry for myself. I hated it, but I appreciated his parents for allowing us to move back in with them.

At the end of May, My Millennial Life was debuting in Canada at a theater, so the director Maureen Judge bought me a ticket to come visit and see the documentary. Doing that documentary was a great experience in itself! I met some great people – including the girl pictured below, Meron who was in the documentary with me.

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Eventually, I found a PT barista position in August.

Meanwhile, we were planning our wedding. It was a very stressful time in our lives because he went on unemployment and I was barely earning anything. We went from living comfortably to scraping by. But, again, his parents were generous and didn’t make us pay rent.

Regardless, we were in a bad place.

I was emotionally unstable at times while he was the one to pull me back up.

Then, his parents sold their house and the 4 of us moved into a 2-bedroom apartment. That was a hard adjustment for all of us. It was a smaller area, but we all got used to it. He and I were used to living in an apartment, so it wasn’t too big of a deal for us.

His brother’s wedding was October 14th, so we were having two weddings within 3 weeks of each other. Therefore, we had her bridal shower, mine, her bachelorette party and mine and of course the weddings.

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It was a fun time because I LOVE weddings, but the money wasn’t always available, so we did what we had to do in order to attend these events.

For my wedding, I decided to have two maids of honor.

Well, one of my maids of honor was causing such stress, so 5 days before the wedding, I told her I didn’t want her in my party or to come for that matter. I haven’t spoken with her since and that just means she never was my friend.

My best friend/maid of honor came into town for 3 days and her, her friend, Angelina and I went out two days before our wedding. I hadn’t seen her in almost a year, so it was a very happy reunion!

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Our wedding was perfect – surprising! Everything went smooth and we didn’t have ANY issues!

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Our honeymoon was mediocre because, on the cruise, we felt sick most days. But, it was nice to get away for a bit.

So, we’ve had ups & downs this year – mostly downs.

“Things will get better. Something will happen for you guys soon. Everything will be fine.” — I hear these phrases all the time and I hope they’re correct because other than getting married, nothing positive has happened. But, I’m going to try & stay positive because geez, something has to give!

I’m hoping 2017 will be better!

Here’s what I learned in 2016:

  1. Going through rough patches makes you a stronger person.
  2. Appreciating the people and good things in my life
  3. Stop dwelling on the past (this one especially)

I had such a HARD time letting go of Tennessee this year. It took me longer than the average person because being independent meant everything to me! But, I needed to learn that my independence isn’t gone for you, rather, it’s temporarily out of order.

Goals for 2017:

  1. Get even more into health & fitness.
  2. Have a successful career
  3. Grow even more as a person

2016 absolutely sucked, so I’m hoping in 2017, things will look up!

I Hope He Still Gives Me That Look Even When I’m Old And Gray

The man I love is lying at the end of the bed watching one of his favorite shows. He strokes his hair and squints at the screen.

“Put on your glasses, you keep squinting your eyes,” I say as I hand him his glasses. He smiles at me nonchalantly.

I stare at him for a few more minutes before I return back to writing. His back is facing me, so he doesn’t see me staring in his direction. I take a few more moments to look at the man I just married.

We’ve been married for almost 2 months. We’ve been together for over 3 years and we didn’t meet the conventional way, rather we met online.

I was against online dating and refused to try it, until my best friend convinced me. Long story short, I met my husband online and I don’t regret giving into something I wasn’t comfortable with doing.

I thank my best friend quite often for pushing me to create a profile on Okcupid. She was the one who told me it was okay to pursue online dating.

“It’s fun, trust me,” she said.

And, she was right.


“Will you always give me that look?” I ask my husband.

He smiles and says, “yes, of course.”

I just want to remember this moment before everything gets crazy, before kids come into the picture, before we purchase our first house, before we get old, before it’s the end of just the two of us.

“I’m scared that our love with change,” I say. “It may change, but I’ll always love you,” he responses with.

I just want him to always push the hair out of eyes, stroke my hair, hold me tight and cuddle me when I need it and most of all, love me after I’m pregnant. These are just fears of mine though.

Deep down, I know he will, but there’s always a part of me that’s scared of the changes that will happen in the years to come.

Even when I’m old and gray, I’m hoping he’ll love me just the same!

He kisses me on the forehead and hugs me tight. I never want him to stop doing that even when we have kids or even when my body changes.

We’re just starting our lives together and there will be lots of stuff we’re going to endure. But, at the end of the day, supporting each other will become a crucial part of our lives and I know we’ll be able to be there for each other no matter what!

Via Puckermob

Please Stop Saying Prince Charming Is Right Around The Corner

When I was single, I was so sick of people saying, “oh, it’s just not meant to be.”

I’d cringe every time I’d hear someone mumble those damn words.

I understand they were trying to make me feel better, but I just wanted to say shut the f**k up!

It never made me feel at ease. It just annoyed me and made me want to slap them.

It’s funny that I bring this up because I’ve caught myself saying this phrase to my single friends. But, sometimes, I just don’t know what to say. 

I mean, in my heart I know my girls will find the right guy, but I just don’t know when that will be.

Here’s the thing: when I met my husband, I wasn’t looking for a relationship. In fact, I didn’t want to have anything to do with men. I was so tired of dating guys, so I focused on my career instead. But, then, one day, Brett came along and the rest is history.

So, this is the advice I can give you: it will happen when you least expect it because well, life is so unpredictable and you cannot predict when the right guy will come along.

But, for those who are telling girls that prince charming is right around the corner, please stop unless you have like a crystal ball. If you can, in fact, see the future then I’ll allow you to say that phrase and tell me what’s ahead because I’d sure as hell like to know!

There’s also one thing you must remember: even though you crave a guy to take care of you, there are pros to being single.

You get plenty alone time to focus on hobbies, writing, crafts and hanging with friends.  Also, you don’t have to worry about checking in with your guy or getting to know his friends. And, I’m sure there are other things but I’m just going to leave you with the two most important!

Just keep those pros in mind late at night when you want to cuddle with someone.

It’s natural to want to be with someone because we all want to be loved, but unfortunately the more you want something, it never really happens. It usually occurs when you don’t care or aren’t looking for a boyfriend.

And, that’s not bullshit, it really does normally happen like that.

I just want people to stop feeding you lines because they’d like to make you feel better because it doesn’t help or work!

Just tell me to focus on my own stuff and then at some point the guy I’m destined to be with will walk by.

Via Puckermob

Let’s Talk About Frustration

I’m human and I get frustrated.

We’re all human and frustration is part of life. But, it’s all in how you deal with it. Do you let it get you down? Do you let it get to you so badly that you stop trying? This is when it’s a problem.

There are days when I’m absolutely fine and then there are days I call my “down days” where it takes me a while to get out of my funk.

Trust me, eventually I get back to normal, but it may take me some time.

I get frustrated that I don’t have a career or I’m not able to afford my own place. I get frustrated that at 27 years old I don’t have everything I want.

I’m always appreciative of my husband, his family and mine for keeping us afloat. Again, that’s one thing I must always remember when I become frustrated. I know, I get it, but I’m human and I can feel frustrated sometimes.

But, if I let it constantly continue and don’t do anything about it, I’m doing nothing but hurting myself. I should be proud of myself for finding a guy who I call my husband, my degrees and my experience. I keep telling myself that there are some people who haven’t come as far as me.

Not to mention, I was strong enough to move 800+ miles away from family and friends. There are too many people who would have been able to do that.

So, when you’re feeling down, depressed or frustrated, remember all the positives going on in your life. Remember what you have instead of what you don’t have.

Via Puckermob

We Went To Three Cities And A Cruise For Our Honeymoon Part 1

My husband hates flying, so we decided to take a road trip to visit Savannah, GA, Charleston, SC and Raleigh, NC. In-between, we went on a cruise to the (Amber Cove) Dominican Republic, St. Thomas & St. Maarten.

I was more excited about the cruise than anything else.

But, to my surprise, it was actually quite disappointing because we got motion sickness and we weren’t thrilled with the forms of entertainment as well as the food. Ick! After a few days, we were sick of the food.

I yearned to eat real food instead of buffets every day. I mean, it was nice to just get food whenever you wanted, but it was also dangerous because it was mostly processed and I feared gaining weight.

Let’s start with the cruise, which lasted 7 days.

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When we got to our room, we were greeted with the photo below – which was the sweetest thing ever!

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On the 2nd night, we dressed up for FORMAL NIGHT. Since it was our honeymoon, the crew members came over with the cake – shown below – and sang HAPPY HONEYMOON TO YOU.

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We did THREE excursions. The first was riding ATVS.

It was muddy and in the Dominican Republic. I let him drive because I was afraid. We got really muddy, but it was fun. We also drank.. a lot. I’m not used to drinking that much, but I just went with the flow.

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THIS IS KELVIN, THE TOUR GUIDE, MY HUSBAND & I.

Next was snorkeling in St. Thomas.

OMG.

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THE VIEW.

It was absolutely beautiful and snorkeling was so much fun.

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YEAH, YOU AHEAD AND SAY IT – WE LOOK LAMEEEE.

Next was a Sunset Cruise, which disappointed us because people were chatting, drinking and the captain didn’t even go toward the sunset. You would think she would considering it was the Sunset Cruise, right?

WRONG.

We went to a few fitness classes while on the boat, watched a movie, went in the hot-tub, swam, sunbathed and drank.

We decided that we aren’t CRUISE PEOPLE, but we wouldn’t have figured that out if we didn’t go, so it was a good experience.

This is just PART ONE of the #Alwaysn4evan Honeymoon.

Stay tuned for PART TWO.

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