The man I love is lying at the end of the bed watching one of his favorite shows. He strokes his hair and squints at the screen.
“Put on your glasses, you keep squinting your eyes,” I say as I hand him his glasses. He smiles at me nonchalantly.
I stare at him for a few more minutes before I return back to writing. His back is facing me, so he doesn’t see me staring in his direction. I take a few more moments to look at the man I just married.
We’ve been married for almost 2 months. We’ve been together for over 3 years and we didn’t meet the conventional way, rather we met online.
I was against online dating and refused to try it, until my best friend convinced me. Long story short, I met my husband online and I don’t regret giving into something I wasn’t comfortable with doing.
I thank my best friend quite often for pushing me to create a profile on Okcupid. She was the one who told me it was okay to pursue online dating.
“It’s fun, trust me,” she said.
And, she was right.
“Will you always give me that look?” I ask my husband.
He smiles and says, “yes, of course.”
I just want to remember this moment before everything gets crazy, before kids come into the picture, before we purchase our first house, before we get old, before it’s the end of just the two of us.
“I’m scared that our love with change,” I say. “It may change, but I’ll always love you,” he responses with.
I just want him to always push the hair out of eyes, stroke my hair, hold me tight and cuddle me when I need it and most of all, love me after I’m pregnant. These are just fears of mine though.
Deep down, I know he will, but there’s always a part of me that’s scared of the changes that will happen in the years to come.
Even when I’m old and gray, I’m hoping he’ll love me just the same!
He kisses me on the forehead and hugs me tight. I never want him to stop doing that even when we have kids or even when my body changes.
We’re just starting our lives together and there will be lots of stuff we’re going to endure. But, at the end of the day, supporting each other will become a crucial part of our lives and I know we’ll be able to be there for each other no matter what!