In 2016, I lost two of my best friends.
It wasn’t my fault either. Rather, it was both of them who to pushed me away subtly.
The first one probably hurt more the other because I truly thought we had something good. She was the one I relied on while living in another state. She was the one who sought advice from, leaned on when I needed someone to talk to and hung out with when I wanted “girl time.”
She punched me in the gut without even knowing it.
She hasn’t kept in touch with me and obviously, this is an indication that we never really were friends. I mean, I told her some deep and serious shit and she returned the favor. But, then, when I was gone she stabbed me in the back. This begs the question of: was she ever really my friend?
The second was someone I knew since 5th grade.
This one didn’t hurt as much because we haven’t been that close for a while. But, she was my maid of honor, so she was definitely an important part of my life. She was the one that never judged me. She was the one I could literally talk to about anything. She never questioned my decisions or even said much when it probably was downright nuts.
But, I knew that wasn’t her talking because she had changed since she’d been dating her now-fiancé.
It hurt though when she was adding unnecessary stress to what was set to be one of the best days of my life. She argued with stuff I asked of her and when I wanted her to do certain duties, she never came through. I was frustrated, but I never voiced it to her because I knew it was cause more drama.
So, I kept my mouth shut.
Then, she got annoyed with a detail I neglected to tell her. That was the last straw, so I asked her not to come to my wedding. I was pretty upset that along the way she caused such issues. That was supposed to be one of my best friends.
Both friendships were supposed to last, but I guess things don’t always work out the way you’d like them to. I got hurt in 2016, but now that it’s 2017, I’m starting over. Therefore, I’m going to be a bit more cautious and watch whose got my back.