In 2018, I vow not to be afraid.
I vow to have confidence in my abilities. I vow to stop second guessing myself. I won’t be easily defeated, and I will remain fearless. Maybe this is a tall order, but it has to happen. In 2018, I will be 29 years, which means I’m one year away from 30. Holy s***.
Does turning 30 scare me? Yes. Do you know why? Because I’m no longer in my twenties. I’m no longer a “young woman” or a “young lady.” Instead, I’m a woman.
By 30, I’m hoping I’ll have at least one child or be pregnant. I know that it will happen when it’s meant to, but I need to prepare myself for parenthood. In order to do that, I need to be assertive. I need to know who I am as a person so I can teach my son or daughter how to grow up as a fearless individual. I need to teach him or her to be strong and not let others bring him or her down.
So, in 2018, I need to hold myself accountable. I need to stick to these promises to keep growing as a person. I should be treated better than I am and should not take s*** from anyone around me. I don’t need someone being nice in person and then behind my back, talk crap.
I’m done with drama and will no longer deal with that. My standards and self-worth are higher than that because I treat people with dignity and respect. I do my best not to judge because I don’t know their back story. I try to understand it from their perspective and try not to assume.
My friend told me her word for 2018 is FEARLESS. I think I’d like to follow suit and remain unafraid when someone tries to challenge or talks about me behind closed doors.
2018 is the year to stop being afraid of my own shadow and stop caring what other people think. I’m ready, are you?