Emptiness, It’s Such A Horrible Feeling

“Are you looking forward to seeing your family?” I ask my VP on Monday. I know the reason she was going back home wasn’t exactly a happy reunion because it was her brother’s memorial, but I still asked. She began to get emotional, which wasn’t my intent when I originally inquired.

“I’ve been thinking about it and I guess I just haven’t accepted it,” she said wiping away tears. “Since I didn’t see him that much, I wasn’t constantly exposed to it, you know?” I understood what she meant. And, I get it.

She leaves tomorrow morning and for some odd reason when I got home from work, I had this feeling of emptiness. I’m not sure if the two are related to her leaving for her brothers service, but I just started feeling really sad and upset. Then, I sent her a text saying I’m thinking of her. But, still, I feel my throat clenching and feel this overall feeling of sadness.

When I’m feeling down and missing my family, she’s the only one who understands and can relate. And, so, I probably feel closer to her than my other co-workers. It’s nice knowing someone understands.

But, it sucks so bad that she had to lose her brother over cancer. Cancer is a vicious cycle that will never die, instead people die from it. This brings me to my next point, life isn’t guaranteed. For some reason, we were put on this planet, but weren’t promised tomorrow.  You just have to live your life to the fullest and don’t be afraid to take chances.

Tell your significant other, parents, friends, dog, children and family that you love them. Love yourself and be true to yourself. Never back down. You just never know what tomorrow will bring.

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