Here’s Hoping I Can Keep My Emotions Together

I’m in Greenville and I’m at Walmart picking out the curtains and garbage bags for our new apartment. I’m in my own world as I take a look around the store. My dad calls me, but doesn’t leave a message while I’m chatting away with my husband about shower curtains. I know that if my dad called me, the conversation wasn’t going to be a … Continue reading Here’s Hoping I Can Keep My Emotions Together

The Emptiness Of Loved Ones Leaving After Visiting For A Few Days

You can feel the emptiness in the air of people who were once visiting, but are no longer around. You see a deflated air mattress where someone once slept. You hear the slight sound of the fan going around. You hear dogs barking outside. But, there are no voices. There’s no one talking, laughing or speaking. You feel absolutely lonesome and it’s a feeling not … Continue reading The Emptiness Of Loved Ones Leaving After Visiting For A Few Days

Those damn text messages really stirred nasty, unwanted thoughts back into my brain.

Low on storage my phone read this morning. Okay, time to delete some applications from my phone to free up space. I looked through the many apps I had, but couldn’t find it in my heart to delete them. Instagram? No way. Facebook? Ut-uh. Google Maps? Hell no. Voice Dialer, which takes up 40.00 gigs, yes. I simple pushed the delete button and went on my … Continue reading Those damn text messages really stirred nasty, unwanted thoughts back into my brain.

I’m a bit disheveled. That’s me

Doubts. They stayed. They were here. They were present. They arrived, but never left. I had an entire week to think, ponder, write, decide what I wanted to do. Would I do it? Could I do it? Was I strong enough to go through with it? Annoyed. Frustrated. Irritated. Mad. Pissed. I kept talking. Building up my strength to really do it. I had to … Continue reading I’m a bit disheveled. That’s me