I think I’m ready. I think I’m ready to embrace the changes in my life. I think I’m ready to face them head on & not be as afraid. I think I’m ready to be grateful & appreciate my surroundings, the good things in life, the good friends and family I have, the special moments that happen. I saw a coyote today while strolling through … Continue reading I just want to learn to rely on myself more.
I’m watching my favorite show, One Tree Hill, of course and then, all of a sudden, it happens. My cell phone chirps that old ringtone. I am brought back. Back to the days at Temple University. I swear, tonight feels like a homework night filled with hours of studying and frustration. Staying in my room all night is the key. I can’t even leave the … Continue reading How do I stop the memories from coming?
I’m standing in the kitchen washing the dishes and then, bang, all of a sudden a memory re-enters my mind. My two friends & I are sitting at the Bell Tower at Temple studying for our English class. One of my gals is naming concepts from our class. Then, my other friend answers. I’m a bit distracted & I haven’t studied yet, so I just … Continue reading I just hate the memories.
Monday, August 26, 2013– A Monday. A horrid, terrible, disgusting, lonely, depressing, difficult, hot, nasty, gross, grotesque Monday at that. Classes at Temple University begin today. I’m not there. I’m not registered. I’m not going. I’m not participating in another fun school year filled with crowded hallways, students shouting each others names, recounting their long summer. I’m not there and I hate it. I hate … Continue reading Without Temple University, I’m lost.
I went to meet with a guy face-to-face about a story I was writing for the Temple News. I hadn’t been to Temple since December and I knew it would all come back to me. The plan was for my then boyfriend to meet me there; I’d meet the guy then the bf and I would get lunch. As I boarded the train, I became … Continue reading I’ll most certainly never forget!
Again, Again & Again. While sleeping, the memories came back. I swear, it just felt like yesterday. I was in school. I was beginning the second half of my senior year at Temple. I was happy to end the studying, paper writing, spending countless hours in my room and the reading, reading and more reading. I’d never have to pick up another novel to read … Continue reading I miss Temple University.
Rain pours down on a dreary Friday morning. My windows have drops splashed on them. 9:30 AM. I wake up in a depressed state. I feel alone & lost, empty even. What is it? Why do I feel this way? What’s the problem? What’s the issue? What’s the problem? I feel utterly lost. I’m missing something. I’ve misplaced something & cannot locate its whereabouts. I’m … Continue reading The first few days as a college graduate– Scary. Overwhelming. Lonely. Empty.